Today was the saddest day since day one of school.

I missed my baby so much I nearly was in tears during lecture. But no, it was a lecture, and my job is to pay attention to the lecturer. I couldn't though, my mind was with baby the whole time, and I managed to highlight what common sense told me I should highlight, or when I was lucky enough to catch the lecturer's words, I took notes.

Baby and I have been together for 8 months, and still counting. Our sunday together wasn't exactly long, but I had a great time enjoying his company. He went to dota compy, came back with Ash and Sx, then we lunched. I wished I was there, because this time, I can understand, and the stuff that they mentioned about the compy was DAMN HILARIOUS.
The two of them went home I THINK, while we made our way to our special place(:


Yesterday after school went to hanfong's cousin's house. GOT DOGGY AND THE DOGGY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY CUTE. I kissed her head and my baby was shocked. HAHAHAHAHA

Back home, tried to revise for today's ICA1. ZZZZ i scored a lousy C-, which is kind of expected cause even though I read the slides, it wasn't everything and I AM A COMPUTER IDIOT, no matter how much I'm to read.
Don't believe, ask my boyfriend.
His past experiences are PROOF OF MY STUPIDITY.

Lab lesson today was slacked. Learned about HTML, which for today's lesson, I knew everything already thanks to my 5 and a half years of blogging. Got a STAR for today's homework.(:

After school went AMK Hub with baby, Jenn, hf, and isaac. Watched Friday the 13th. m18(((: My first m18 show and it's with my baby and my good friends! My reactions till nearly every scene since the start of the show were HUGE.


Know what ma? No matter how much Julyn tells us about her boyfriend, what sweet things her boyfriend does for her, I wasn't jealous at all. Surprisingly, but I knew why. I have a sweet boyfriend too, and I have no need to be jealous or to compare. Her boyfriend is her boyfriend, and my boyfriend is my boyfriend. I don't want to compare him to others cause to me he IS already the sweetest that he can be, and I really, couldn't and don't want to ask for anything more. I'm so contented enough. I feel so fortunate.


Today, both of us were emo-ing for the same reason. I felt so guilty to make his day a horrible one. But I really wanted best for him. For the first time, I felt I wasn't good enough for him. I wanted him to be happy and receive the best, and I don't mind if I had to take a step back.
But,

because of my such thought, I made him suffer inside. My heart hurts so bad to know I put him through such heartache when he only wants me.

I suck being his girl.

And I cheered up upon talking to him.
HE WAS SO SWEET TO ME.

During break when I received his message telling me to eat, my eyes became wet. I was so sad you know?
At the end of lab lessons, we talked for awhile on msn and HE, AGAIN, WAS SO SWEET.
He made me feel worse for everything that has happened today.