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Date : Saturday, February 28, 2009
Time : 10:07 PM
Title :
Just came back from CCK.Went to watch "Marley and Me" with family.It was a touching show.Really taught me stuff,made me feel,made me remember about reality.Like,how scared I felt to lose a love one,especially those whom I treasure alot.Well,I wanted to sms,turn to someone due to the feelings that hit me,but then....never mind.
At least the movie had made me laugh,brought me away from reality for a short period of time.
Me,I ate VERY LITTLE during the daytime.If it's the past me,I would have starved badly and be complaining of the lack of food,but the amount I ate today was , more than enough actually.My stomach didn't want to receive any food because my brain had brainwashed it with overwhelming emotions.So,screw you brain!
Oh man,the lightning just strike at the corner of my eye.I can be scared of the lightning and thunder at night,and at this period of time,I do need a companion ever so badly.
Anyway,today I dota-ed again.Nearly won,even though it was vs AI(easy).But for ME, it's an achievement! Initally had broken into the other base already,BUT then,I died-.- And I had to wait for slightly over one minute.Then by the time I can start killing again,MY base under attack-.-THEN,when things start looking up for me again,my old-so-loyal computer shut down on me.Cannot stand such an idiot,so I went to watch tv after an "AIYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ~~!"
This is lame.
Spent the entire noon working on the stuff that I started 7 to 8 days ago.Finally it's near completion,but it's kind of hard to work on the last segment.zzzz.oh well.maybe I should just burn it in the wastepaper basket.
Just kidding. I'm not going to waste the efforts I did just to do it.
And I'm tired now.I didn't sleep much yesterday night.Had to catch on with my beauty sleep.My panda eyes are showing .. !!! @#$%^&*(
Maybe a good night sleep will make me forget stuff.I hope it will.For now,after the hurting sms-es,I really don't want to talk to anybody.At least,just for now.
P.S: don't anyhow think about what's happened to me.
&,I love Hershey's Cookies and Creme,just like how my special one loves it too.I was craving for chocolate because when I'm sad,I normally turn to chocolates,and the best and greatest chocolate saver would be Hershey's cookies and creme!
Time : 10:07 PM
Title :
Just came back from CCK.Went to watch "Marley and Me" with family.It was a touching show.Really taught me stuff,made me feel,made me remember about reality.Like,how scared I felt to lose a love one,especially those whom I treasure alot.Well,I wanted to sms,turn to someone due to the feelings that hit me,but then....never mind.
At least the movie had made me laugh,brought me away from reality for a short period of time.
Me,I ate VERY LITTLE during the daytime.If it's the past me,I would have starved badly and be complaining of the lack of food,but the amount I ate today was , more than enough actually.My stomach didn't want to receive any food because my brain had brainwashed it with overwhelming emotions.So,screw you brain!
Oh man,the lightning just strike at the corner of my eye.I can be scared of the lightning and thunder at night,and at this period of time,I do need a companion ever so badly.
Anyway,today I dota-ed again.Nearly won,even though it was vs AI(easy).But for ME, it's an achievement! Initally had broken into the other base already,BUT then,I died-.- And I had to wait for slightly over one minute.Then by the time I can start killing again,MY base under attack-.-THEN,when things start looking up for me again,my old-so-loyal computer shut down on me.Cannot stand such an idiot,so I went to watch tv after an "AIYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ~~!"
This is lame.
Spent the entire noon working on the stuff that I started 7 to 8 days ago.Finally it's near completion,but it's kind of hard to work on the last segment.zzzz.oh well.maybe I should just burn it in the wastepaper basket.
Just kidding. I'm not going to waste the efforts I did just to do it.
And I'm tired now.I didn't sleep much yesterday night.Had to catch on with my beauty sleep.My panda eyes are showing .. !!! @#$%^&*(
Maybe a good night sleep will make me forget stuff.I hope it will.For now,after the hurting sms-es,I really don't want to talk to anybody.At least,just for now.
P.S: don't anyhow think about what's happened to me.
&,I love Hershey's Cookies and Creme,just like how my special one loves it too.I was craving for chocolate because when I'm sad,I normally turn to chocolates,and the best and greatest chocolate saver would be Hershey's cookies and creme!
Date : Friday, February 27, 2009
Time : 11:01 PM
Title :
本小姐今天心情真的很不好。。。
我还以为，只是一点点的触感不会让自己哭，谁知道，眼泪一掉就很难停。
Really feel like going to CCK Park all of a sudden, just to walk around and enjoy the peace that the park offers.I do need it now,and alone.I don't wanna cry anymore-I need comfort;I'm just feeling so heartbroken I couldn't concentrate on any slightest thing.
I...wanna feel nothing.
Time : 11:01 PM
Title :
本小姐今天心情真的很不好。。。
我还以为，只是一点点的触感不会让自己哭，谁知道，眼泪一掉就很难停。
Really feel like going to CCK Park all of a sudden, just to walk around and enjoy the peace that the park offers.I do need it now,and alone.I don't wanna cry anymore-I need comfort;I'm just feeling so heartbroken I couldn't concentrate on any slightest thing.
I...wanna feel nothing.
Date : Thursday, February 26, 2009
Time : 9:44 PM
Title :
I have no 前途 in dota lor.
If I play I can have no ending,
or within a mere 3 minutes,
my head will kena pwned.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
But I've set a new record.
Within 40mins I died only twice.
But to people out there,
confirm this is noob.
But at least today is not 白dota-ed.
I can farm better I THINK.
BUT
aiya, noob 就是noob.
I play until nearly point middle finger
!#$%^&*(@
Actually,I did.
Hand out(sub-consciously) already,but fingers did the wrong sign.
HAH!
Even point middle finger also CANNOT MAKE IT.
At least I tried my best and the whole game lasted for about 70mins.
Oh well.
I can see myself being real good in dota in a millenium.
And brother and me play,also tio owned.
AIYA.WHATEVER
First time play DOTA and already I see myself no hope.
AND I'VE DEDICATED AN ENTIRE POST TO DOTA.
Time : 9:44 PM
Title :
I have no 前途 in dota lor.
If I play I can have no ending,
or within a mere 3 minutes,
my head will kena pwned.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
But I've set a new record.
Within 40mins I died only twice.
But to people out there,
confirm this is noob.
But at least today is not 白dota-ed.
I can farm better I THINK.
BUT
aiya, noob 就是noob.
I play until nearly point middle finger
!#$%^&*(@
Actually,I did.
Hand out(sub-consciously) already,but fingers did the wrong sign.
HAH!
Even point middle finger also CANNOT MAKE IT.
At least I tried my best and the whole game lasted for about 70mins.
Oh well.
I can see myself being real good in dota in a millenium.
And brother and me play,also tio owned.
AIYA.WHATEVER
First time play DOTA and already I see myself no hope.
AND I'VE DEDICATED AN ENTIRE POST TO DOTA.
Date : Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Time : 1:35 AM
Title :
Yesterday went to Cini with baby,Jenn,Huiling,Mak,JunXian,Ken,ShouXian,Ji,Isaac and TcheaHong. Watched "Role Models",which is nc16.Anyway,I think that show being rated nc16 is total bullshit...Should be M18? CENSORED SIA....
Then head to Clarke Quay after the movie.Had dinner there.It was like so romantic @ CQ ??? Next time when I'm to be proposed,I hope to be on one of the boats at CQ there.rofl.I really know how to dream big.Then we had dinner there.
Went to JunXian's house.PLayed mahjong.On winning streak,but only because I was sitting at the really lucky place.I could have won last round but stupid baby held on to my "SI TONG" !#$%&* lols.aiya ...!
Head home.So tired.
Today Baby came to my house.Played left4dead.LOLS.He keep dying.Then I was like,"want use cheats not." He don't want.Hahaha I'm sucha spoil sport.Anyway,even though he was playing,the one feeling anxious was me.HAHAH! Then when he finally made it to the boat to escape,he died lor.
.____________________________.
So it's like,the boat's in view but he died while chionging there.OMG.-.-
Tonight don't need sleep liao.Close eyes will think of that and I'll be laughing away instead.
Time : 1:35 AM
Title :
Yesterday went to Cini with baby,Jenn,Huiling,Mak,JunXian,Ken,ShouXian,Ji,Isaac and TcheaHong. Watched "Role Models",which is nc16.Anyway,I think that show being rated nc16 is total bullshit...Should be M18? CENSORED SIA....
Then head to Clarke Quay after the movie.Had dinner there.It was like so romantic @ CQ ??? Next time when I'm to be proposed,I hope to be on one of the boats at CQ there.rofl.I really know how to dream big.Then we had dinner there.
Went to JunXian's house.PLayed mahjong.On winning streak,but only because I was sitting at the really lucky place.I could have won last round but stupid baby held on to my "SI TONG" !#$%&* lols.aiya ...!
Head home.So tired.
Today Baby came to my house.Played left4dead.LOLS.He keep dying.Then I was like,"want use cheats not." He don't want.Hahaha I'm sucha spoil sport.Anyway,even though he was playing,the one feeling anxious was me.HAHAH! Then when he finally made it to the boat to escape,he died lor.
.____________________________.
So it's like,the boat's in view but he died while chionging there.OMG.-.-
Tonight don't need sleep liao.Close eyes will think of that and I'll be laughing away instead.
Date : Thursday, February 19, 2009
Time : 5:03 PM
Title :
random pictures.found something to do to keep my mind occupied.
me! CNY Day 1.
BRO&ME.Do we look alike?(:
A few days before my 15th birthday.Celebrated
with Nessa,Mie2 and Ger @ a playground
Thanks girls(:
ME WHEN I WAS 3.@ SYDNEY.
MY 姑姑 PUSHING ME PRAM.
NO IDEA WHY WE MET AT SYDNEY.
OH,SHE STUDYING.
LOLS
AM A KINDERGARDEN GRADUATE!
My background no picture.special eh?
Because last time I came down with chicken pox,
so missed the photo-taking with class.
AWW.
I'm a good tongue roller yo!
One years+
LOLS.Essentials for TITRATION.
screwed experiment.
Though it's easy, I HATE it.
The questions are a killer.
No wonder I get a C for Chemistry.
Thanks to my own efforts.HAHA
This is a super weird vehicle.
I was really staring at it.See how the person
control the vehicle?
Wonder why the back portion of it never
get hit.
Rubiks cube.
I was supposed to STUDY for test.
But then...........
Anyway,it is NOT completed.
ONLY 2 sides - the white and red(with the stupid blue in the middle)
Shocking,I anyhow do and came the red side.
Was so fascinated I decided not to study anymore and
SLEEP!(:
Wonder how I did for the test?lols
I wrote it(:
It may not be nice to some people,but I like it.
Rot at Shirlynn's house there with KX some 1 year plus ago
to do stuffs for open house.
In the end leh,
No one looking at the ccas' booths lor.
wth.
EVIA,本小姐 & SUFEI.(see,the 2 have to bend slightly
down for me.HNG walao.hahah)
Taken end of last year,when it's near the time to
take down the masterpiece!
All my worksheets bombarding my personal file.
Lazy to file them up.
But I believe I'm not the worse yet.hahah^^
Extra lessons @ the end of year of sec3!
DON'T KNOW WHO BROUGHT THE BALLOON(S)
TO CLASS.ZZZanyway,people like mie2 and ger and ME
played with them.(:
Childish people.lols.which includes me^^
My parrot flew away.Was so sad...
Birdy birdy,where are you ~ ...?!
NESSA AND ME.
BARCADI!!!!!OMGOSH.
The small bear bought at minitoons for ME by BOON.
Time : 5:03 PM
Title :
random pictures.found something to do to keep my mind occupied.
me! CNY Day 1.
BRO&ME.Do we look alike?(:
A few days before my 15th birthday.Celebrated
with Nessa,Mie2 and Ger @ a playground
Thanks girls(:
ME WHEN I WAS 3.@ SYDNEY.
MY 姑姑 PUSHING ME PRAM.
NO IDEA WHY WE MET AT SYDNEY.
OH,SHE STUDYING.
LOLS
AM A KINDERGARDEN GRADUATE!
My background no picture.special eh?
Because last time I came down with chicken pox,
so missed the photo-taking with class.
AWW.
I'm a good tongue roller yo!
One years+
LOLS.Essentials for TITRATION.
screwed experiment.
Though it's easy, I HATE it.
The questions are a killer.
No wonder I get a C for Chemistry.
Thanks to my own efforts.HAHA
This is a super weird vehicle.
I was really staring at it.See how the person
control the vehicle?
Wonder why the back portion of it never
get hit.
Rubiks cube.
I was supposed to STUDY for test.
But then...........
Anyway,it is NOT completed.
ONLY 2 sides - the white and red(with the stupid blue in the middle)
Shocking,I anyhow do and came the red side.
Was so fascinated I decided not to study anymore and
SLEEP!(:
Wonder how I did for the test?lols
I wrote it(:
It may not be nice to some people,but I like it.
Rot at Shirlynn's house there with KX some 1 year plus ago
to do stuffs for open house.
In the end leh,
No one looking at the ccas' booths lor.
wth.
EVIA,本小姐 & SUFEI.(see,the 2 have to bend slightly
down for me.HNG walao.hahah)
Taken end of last year,when it's near the time to
take down the masterpiece!
All my worksheets bombarding my personal file.
Lazy to file them up.
But I believe I'm not the worse yet.hahah^^
Extra lessons @ the end of year of sec3!
DON'T KNOW WHO BROUGHT THE BALLOON(S)
TO CLASS.ZZZanyway,people like mie2 and ger and ME
played with them.(:
Childish people.lols.which includes me^^
My parrot flew away.Was so sad...
Birdy birdy,where are you ~ ...?!
NESSA AND ME.
IN THE TOILET.
AFTER ICE-SKATING,
WAITING FOR FRIEND TO COME OUT.LOLS.
see my pants? I don't wear skinnies yet at that time(:
Old person.So backdated.
BARCADI!!!!!OMGOSH.
I like the green one the best(:
Taken at ParisRis Cheers.
and last of all,to end everything,
my fav. cute cute picture.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
The small bear bought at minitoons for ME by BOON.
lols.
and now,
I put it,with the other 2 more small soft toys and big bear,behind my bed.
So I will be well-protected by Boon's love.
HAHAHA.
OH MY.CAN'T STOP SMILING.ROFL.
Date :
Time : 3:03 PM
Title :
I feel so second-ed.
Time : 3:03 PM
Title :
I feel so second-ed.
I've been trying so badly,it's wearing me out.I have no encouragement nor support because I'm not being reasonable,and I may give in to hatred one day.Soon,I expect.Is there time to turn things round?Will things go smoothly from now on or there will be more obstacles to continue to pull me down?
I sit here,yet my mind was somewhere else.
What is happening over there?
And yet,I don't wanna know.
Not any details that is related.
Still,it doesn't matter.I'm given this and I've got to take it,unreasonable I'll be or not.Somehow, I'm still hanging on.
I, no longer wanna try because everytime I tried and there was still no success,something crops up that just wanna make me fail and *snap* I'm back to the original position.
that's why my heart says.
Yet.
It also says to hang on.
It's better to hang on than to give up what I've been trying all these while.
And I'm not doing it just for myself.
But how do I be strong when I have to do it alone?Where's the support I need so badly?
No,there is nothing wrong and stop being so unreasonable.
I only have one sentence:
I will only stop being unreasonable when I stop caring.
After another cry,I'll pick myself up.
I think.
But I no longer wanna face it alone.
Because it makes me feel that what I'm trying is not worthwhile.
Date :
Time : 11:19 AM
Title :
I woke up this morning feeling the same as when i slept yesterday night.
With the physical pain and emotional distress im suffering from,i really wanna cry now....
and,i really have lost my appetite.
Time : 11:19 AM
Title :
I woke up this morning feeling the same as when i slept yesterday night.
With the physical pain and emotional distress im suffering from,i really wanna cry now....
and,i really have lost my appetite.
Date :
Time : 12:00 AM
Title :
Time : 12:00 AM
Title :
i want to sleep,but i couldnt sleep.the emotions keep the master awake! shit you(the emotions)..
im hungry now,and usually,i would dig the refrigerator for food, but now,i rather gastric hit me than filling my stomach with food.oh,loads of reasons.
anyway,im really tired.but since im kept awake,i shall go find something to do.
btw,my chest seem stuffy for the past few days.i,cant,breathe,properly!argh.it's "killing" me ..!
geez,i cant stop yawning.
tiredness + lack of air = yawns the whole day.
even yawning is tiring.
and irritating.
Date : Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Time : 12:51 PM
Title :
it doesn't matter i guess.i've turned into someone i hate,and it irks me to the core.i said i wouldnt change into the now me,but what have i become?
Time : 12:51 PM
Title :
it doesn't matter i guess.i've turned into someone i hate,and it irks me to the core.i said i wouldnt change into the now me,but what have i become?
Date : Monday, February 16, 2009
Time : 3:47 PM
Title :
im a terrible blogger.hohoho.
Time : 3:47 PM
Title :
im a terrible blogger.hohoho.
Date : Monday, February 09, 2009
Time : 12:49 PM
Title :
wow,i've completely lost my appetite.Even my mom was shocked.Im eating way too little.
Yesterday night was nuts.I covered myself with my blanket.I was freezing cold.yes,freezing.yet my body was burning,till the extend of tears in my eyes.thanks to,vodka.anyway,the alcohol percentage was higher than usual that i drank.oh well,i didnt get drunk.good for me.
Time : 12:49 PM
Title :
wow,i've completely lost my appetite.Even my mom was shocked.Im eating way too little.
Yesterday night was nuts.I covered myself with my blanket.I was freezing cold.yes,freezing.yet my body was burning,till the extend of tears in my eyes.thanks to,vodka.anyway,the alcohol percentage was higher than usual that i drank.oh well,i didnt get drunk.good for me.
Date : Sunday, February 08, 2009
Time : 5:56 PM
Title :
something from an email i've got:
Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
Reality check:Did I do this?
Time : 5:56 PM
Title :
something from an email i've got:
Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
Reality check:Did I do this?
Date : Monday, February 02, 2009
Time : 1:15 AM
Title :
I have no idea how to start this. My eyes got wet after I read a few touching,sad,love stories. That feeling of sadness just keeps building in..
You know how's saddening when two persons fall in love,yet no confession was made? You wasted all the time not knowing the one you love loves you back,and when he/she gets married,your heart goes cracking away.
It's not coincidence two people meet and fall in love.Love like he/she is the only one in your world. Give with all your heart and don't expect or wish for returns.If it puts a smile to your lover's face and contributes to building a beautiful relationship,it will be all worthwhile.It doesn't matter if it costs or not.What's there to complain when you feel happy to know the opposite feels happy?
Accept.It will not be easy definitely,in some cases,but so long as there's nothing you can change,accept,if it means letting your love feel happy.Besides,no one will be happy if the same topic is being quarrelled over time and time again. It's a noble thing to do for someone you love.
Don't go about defining things,making a clear stand when it shouldn't be! Don't say yes,no,yours,or mine.It will be hurting to know that there is still a "you" and "me" separately,and not "us".
I want to love nobly.While I have someone that I can love dearly now,I'm going to give my best shot and my all to maintain the relationship.At least I know that if one day our story stops,I know I have truly loved this person once.I admit I'm not the best girlfriend around,but at least I tried to be,even if there are lots of hiccups along the way.Regret is regret-the regret is for the end of the love.But I'll rather go for the quality,not the quantity.
Time : 1:15 AM
Title :
I have no idea how to start this. My eyes got wet after I read a few touching,sad,love stories. That feeling of sadness just keeps building in..
You know how's saddening when two persons fall in love,yet no confession was made? You wasted all the time not knowing the one you love loves you back,and when he/she gets married,your heart goes cracking away.
It's not coincidence two people meet and fall in love.Love like he/she is the only one in your world. Give with all your heart and don't expect or wish for returns.If it puts a smile to your lover's face and contributes to building a beautiful relationship,it will be all worthwhile.It doesn't matter if it costs or not.What's there to complain when you feel happy to know the opposite feels happy?
Accept.It will not be easy definitely,in some cases,but so long as there's nothing you can change,accept,if it means letting your love feel happy.Besides,no one will be happy if the same topic is being quarrelled over time and time again. It's a noble thing to do for someone you love.
Don't go about defining things,making a clear stand when it shouldn't be! Don't say yes,no,yours,or mine.It will be hurting to know that there is still a "you" and "me" separately,and not "us".
I want to love nobly.While I have someone that I can love dearly now,I'm going to give my best shot and my all to maintain the relationship.At least I know that if one day our story stops,I know I have truly loved this person once.I admit I'm not the best girlfriend around,but at least I tried to be,even if there are lots of hiccups along the way.Regret is regret-the regret is for the end of the love.But I'll rather go for the quality,not the quantity.
Date : Sunday, February 01, 2009
Time : 2:12 PM
Title :
I've decided.I dont wanna post photos up! HAAHAH
Okay anyway,
I'm posted to NANYANG POLY's HOSPITALITY AND RESORT MANAGEMENT.
And before that,I was freaking out whether I will be posted to this course or not because I really,really want this course badly.
Now that I've gotten it,
I literally jumped for joy(:
I know Mie2 will be in NYP too!^^
So will be isaac(it's a curse!!!) and carina.
And more people.hahahah.
But boyfriend off to different school...
It's okay though.I will take it in stride and still love him nevertheless where we study...(:
Right now, my brother is transferring the files for Left4Dead from his handphone to my comp.I hope my comp doesn't hang halfway or I will seriously screw it with lots of screws...
And within 16 hours I finished HarryPotter& The Deathly Hallows!
Oh my gosh,I read until so much information bursting in my head,
even a good,long night sleep is SO NOT good.
And again,within another 2 days I finished HarryPotter&The Half Blood Prince.
YES.
my newest record in my entire reading history.
On friday went k-boxing with boyfriend,huiling,ww,bh and th.
I think I stole the mic the longest.
OOPS.
My lungs felt like really tight and I thought I was suffering from asthma or something.
LOLS.
This is the punishment!
OK.LEFT4DEAD DONE.
SAYONARA
Time : 2:12 PM
Title :
I've decided.I dont wanna post photos up! HAAHAH
Okay anyway,
I'm posted to NANYANG POLY's HOSPITALITY AND RESORT MANAGEMENT.
And before that,I was freaking out whether I will be posted to this course or not because I really,really want this course badly.
Now that I've gotten it,
I literally jumped for joy(:
I know Mie2 will be in NYP too!^^
So will be isaac(it's a curse!!!) and carina.
And more people.hahahah.
But boyfriend off to different school...
It's okay though.I will take it in stride and still love him nevertheless where we study...(:
Right now, my brother is transferring the files for Left4Dead from his handphone to my comp.I hope my comp doesn't hang halfway or I will seriously screw it with lots of screws...
And within 16 hours I finished HarryPotter& The Deathly Hallows!
Oh my gosh,I read until so much information bursting in my head,
even a good,long night sleep is SO NOT good.
And again,within another 2 days I finished HarryPotter&The Half Blood Prince.
YES.
my newest record in my entire reading history.
On friday went k-boxing with boyfriend,huiling,ww,bh and th.
I think I stole the mic the longest.
OOPS.
My lungs felt like really tight and I thought I was suffering from asthma or something.
LOLS.
This is the punishment!
OK.LEFT4DEAD DONE.
SAYONARA