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Date : Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Time : 4:37 PM
Title :

Blog's dying terribly. No time to update. Next week 4 tests up already! After the four tests promise to update.
right now, got to zoom off. one pile of hw and chem test to study. Preparation of salts. Get ready to die!



Date : Monday, January 14, 2008
Time : 10:53 PM
Title :

btw, mie2 said she saw ISKANDAR at Jurong on sunday! T_T dead jealous.



Date :
Time : 8:33 PM
Title :

I HATE GERALDINE. She make me go GA-GA over Ryan Ross from Panic! At The Disco, just like she and Steph are over Brendon. !~#$%^& I'm going to start listening to their songs!!
AND her story, she made Pete Wentz from FOB the "naughty" guy! HNG!!!!!!!!!!!

But overall, SPLENDID STORY!!
But I still hate it that She made Pete the baddie! !#)$%^&*(



Today MsSallySng was going around the sec4s in the hall, catching girls with ALOT and "LONG" fringe. LOL. Evia said " quick quick, pin ur fringe up before get caught by her . " And she didn't wear socks to school LMAO. She didn't want to look like chinawoman, that's why.


This morning was super duper frustrated, especially with my uniform. BAKA SIA. Why must the new uniform be beige and STRIKING BLUE in color?? The previous CONSIDERING-IN-PROCESS new uniform - brown and NOT tucked in - is SO MUCH NICER. And I BET I wont look like sec1 in it. rrrrrrrrr. And the material of the uniform, two types!! plus another old uniform, the school look like got 3 different uniforms. BLAH!!!!!!!
To make matters worse........ the journey to school was like duper warm, and I was perspiring like mad. Make me bath for nothing!!!!!!!!!

Then... MrTeo(DM)'s voice.... and..... the way he's talking to us, is just like an interrogator. Still use the word "inspection". -.-

okok nvm.


Today is one of the bestest school days. First, CME was first lesson, but got no lesson. AMaths was a breeze, teacher only did go through homework. Then it was chem! No lesson; teacher going to be on leave for one whole week (:
After was recess, then english. Went to AVA ROOM watch WindTalkers(related to comprehension passage LOL.) Then was physics, but science lesson was used to continue to watch the movie! 4-5 and 5-2 joined us. So it's 3 classes, squeeze in one AVA Room, going AHHHH at the killing in the war. That Steph behind, she thinks many of the guys in the movie are HOT. LMAO. Sound effects by Steph and Mie2 were HILARIOUS. Liyana could not stop thinking about the leg of one soldier's being ripped off.
THE WORST ONE IS, the head being chopped off! I dont find it digusting or anything bad that I could not take, but just no idea why I nearly wanted to cry. Like so.. damn sadistic.



Yesterday went Night Safari! Just to "help get free tickets" for Jo&Glen and their couple friends. lol. Jo was like so small girl girl. And Glen HOR, that guy hor. -.-" (nth bad. haha)

Anyway, I hope my dad can get another 4 free tickets again! I really want to go.



Date : Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Time : 8:25 PM
Title :

Haiyo. I'm feeling EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE again. WHY???? Just because I thought of the past? Am I still unable to let go?

Today, before recess, jonarse sat beside me. talked talked, laugh laugh. See my handphone, see see, edit edit, say lousy . F3.

Finally passed up my 1500 words essay; can relax already. Even when i've completed it, have not passed it up, still feel very stress. hhahaha

and that lennard is very annoying leh? First time shout " PAMELA DONT SLEEP IN CLASS " . I so guai, sleep in class? Second one is what dont walk around. very lame lor. he then dont walk around. classrooms different blocks also?

Ytd was DarylN's bd. today uncle honyee's bd. That xinhui hor, know people turn 16 i only just turn 15, say me ): people so sad le leh. hahaha.
Sufei said wait until 1stjan09 when i finally turn 16(after jenn's), we go watch nc 16 movie together as one whole class (:

Anyway school's starting to get seriously boring. Triple sciences tests are all falling on us.. next week got physics sec3 revision test, SURE FAIL.

sayonara! so sleepy.



Date : Monday, January 07, 2008
Time : 7:20 PM
Title :

I'm sitting with my long time good boy-friend, isaac! LOL. Since primary 3 he has been sitting behind me. But this year, he's beside me!! I don't want to sit in pairs la. ): I mean I dont mind, but preferably singles. (:
He was bloody crapping away today after recess, and i told jonathan i would rather sit with him than with isaac(if jonarse did listen properly). haha. NOISY! We were talking about our money and family. PSP slim, XBox360, PS2, GAMEBOY, COMPUTER. tsk tsk tsk

Anyway, I hate that asshole weighing machine in school! MADE ME GROW HEAVIER BY 6KG !!?? WALAOEH, 6 KG ALOT LEH!!! IT MADE EVIA HEAVIER BY 5 KG. lol. TMR GO COMPLAIN AH!


Today in school, I read Mie2's another diary, on the OBS. The way she writes her ending, "thanks for the memories" all these, nearly made me cry. And Evia's poem for SHACKLETON also. YO EVIA, NICE POEM, BEST ONE EVER YOU'VE WRITTEN. (:

mr teo still owes 4-9 one dance! HAHAHHAAH.

12 Feb, RegentTKD got to perform! Aiya, the principal wants us to perform for er.... china exchange students?? -.- alamak.
there should be unarmed combat.... and im planning to suggest that we have a "fight". "anticipate" the moves. But all fake de la. All plan already. hahaha. But gonna work hard to make people believe those moves are "on the spot". WOOT.
and and! I hope, I can do one item, where i break at least 4-6 planks, slide back, turning kick! Slide back all the way. wahahahhah.
But not enough manpower lor. f3



I THINK I'LL POST MY STORY IN MY BLOG! HMM. though i think it's not so good now, and may not be up to standard to people like AHEM, but i'll still put it here. HAHAHA

oh yeah, i came up with another 2 peoms, attention to who, it will be very obvious.

anyway, here's one. the another one has his name. as in, not the actual name.

Your eyes have the warmth,
the mischief on the whole.
Something that I adore,
Goes through the hard way.

Once I had all the love,
But time was running short.
While it really does heal wounds,
There is also a fullstop,

to everything...


(yeah, i remember your eyes. on that morning...)

YES, BIG NEWS. THE NUMBER I GAVE MY DAD TO BUY 4D YTD, IT CAME OUT !!!! though only consolation prize, not much money, but still, TADA!!!!!!!! hee (: couldnt help smiling all the way on the journey to the school. hahaha.
that number is a special number to me,and shirlynn's birthday. WOOT.



Date : Sunday, January 06, 2008
Time : 1:32 PM
Title :

Evia was acting like one kuku head ytd night! She came up with her own poems, and some of them, I DONT KNOW HOW, THERE IS DRAGON TALES IN IT! she is so sick over dragon tales. Got one that she had written, is so funny? I told her that handphone and computer should be together, and she go write it in the poem! -.-
aiyo, I keep laughing at her yesterday night.

"when theres no more rain in korea, there would still be sun in singapore, as we have SUN ho yao shan!何耀珊"
it's also in jonathan's blog. she wrote her essay, and was making up many kuku things. -.-"

btw, evia is a joke. she said she's not but her kuku-ness proved otherwise. hahaha

BY EVIA:
sarang heyo is the only word,
i love you is the only english,
我爱你 is the only chinese,
saya cinta kau is the only malay,
you are the only one in my heart..
(this is funny, but i like it! LOL)

i went park for you,
you went OBS for me,
love starts when you gave my yours,
i just want to say 'i love you'
(she dedicates this to me. thanks girl. my foot. )

moon and stars are meant to be together,
just like handphone and computer,
you and me are meant to be together,
just like 牛郎 and 织女
(oh my tian lor.)

dragon tales are just tales,
you and i are the beginning,
there will be no ending for you and me,
so lets just continue on and on..
(dragontales!!! Im going to whack her tmr.)

I wish I wish with all my might, to be in love with you in the land of heart..
(EVIA WATCH YOUR BUTT)

if you were to leave soon,
i will be there to spend every day with you,
if you were to leave tomoro,
i will be there to spend every second with you,
if you were to leave now,
i will be there to send you, to my heart..
(this one, very sweet. haha
and this is the most decent one EVIA has created. LOL)

BY ME:
Do you get not what i see but what i feel?
the love that has been long forgotten,
the past once called faith and trust.
When things shall cut deep and permanent scars imprinted,
the clock shall never turn back for love once more.



I wrote two poems specially for my 1500 words essay! ^^
btw, i've completed it! 6 pages, 3 timelines, 1,868 words. WAHAHAHAHAH

For the love that has always been,
It has slowed and ceased to exist.
When things all turned to blood and tears.
We are made a history
(this one, i only changed the first 2 phrases from the original. haha)

Reaching for what that belongs to me,
were the past and not the present.
When you are here the pain engulfs me,
For I Know you are no longer mine.
While I know that love is the beginning of our story,
It puts a FOOL - stop to every start.


and miemie has written another poem, for jonathan! it's very nice. go his blog see. see see see. (:
Jonathan wrote his own ones too, very nice too.

All Miemie's fault. Write poems, until Evia and I got influenced. EVIA LA, ytd dont want go sleep, write her own poems till she get high =.=


I got another inspiration this morning. I was thinking about how i didnt get his replies, and everything. But when i penned my thoughts down, it's different.



Date : Saturday, January 05, 2008
Time : 8:26 PM
Title :

I GOT MY MONEY!!!! SEE~ I WANNA SHOW OFF. HAHAHA . I couldnt help smiling when i saw the words FIVE HUNDRED DOLLAR ONLY on the cheque? LOL















I hope I'll receive scholarship next year again. if i have, it would be my 5th time taking it!
I told my parents, either take, take $500 , or dont take(SO THAT MEANS I MUST WORK SUPER DUPER HARD. competition is high! and i saw you wang at the CC, hahah. we were like strangers).
But.... if i were to get only 350, i think i will also take la. cos money leh!
or... 250 ):
or.. dont have!
im getting stupid-er, but i still keep thinking on receiving money. -.-
I feel like slapping myself. must stop showing off! but really, money makes me high. even my mom says that im money face. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH
aiya, even patrick's pay is abt slightly lesser than twice my money. somemore half month's pay! ask him increase my allowance say no money, poor people. hahahahaha. we were video-calling each other ytd night. but have to be alittle low profile incase his father finds out. )X
MONEY!
CNY is about 5 weeks later. GONNA GET MORE MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOLS~



Date : Friday, January 04, 2008
Time : 9:30 PM
Title :

My post, dedication to the two fighters at my tagboard.

Currently msging with BingHan, he thinks i have motive for msgin him. LOL? his hand was really red from trying to break the plank!
The prefects and jonathan were playing with the plank at the back of the class during chem. LOL. Thank God, Mdm Juliana did not confiscate it! We really made a lot of noises. And the breaking of plank... the laughter. had great fun. (:

It was a good day today. Worse than usual, I was laughing at every little thing. everything seem funny, i dont know why.



AND EVIA, I LIKE DRAGON TALES, THAT IS HISTORY. EVIA STILL LOVE DRAGON TALES!!! Yesterday at assembly she was talking abt that show. -.- very lame lor!

Mie2, thanks for ur poem!
another two by her(inspired by my love story. wah. power sia. and mie2's good with words. YOU, should be able to write the 1500 words easy, easy right? haha) :

Love is a thing shared by two
Love is what you feel for me and you
Love is precious when its shared
Love is danger when its dared



All the love that history knows,
is said to be in every rose.
Yet all that could be found in two,
is less than what I feel for you.


and another one by me:

Love is our start of a lovely story,
Love is when our desires are met.
When everything all turns to blood and tears,
Love is just what makes us history.



Date : Thursday, January 03, 2008
Time : 4:51 PM
Title :

I love back to school week! But once things start to get serious, I'm going to hate it :

This morning ask GuanRong to help me leave a note if fitri is sleeping in class again. -.-
then i ask him how's school so far?
Didn't reply.
Aiya, nvm la.
I'll just live with it if he doesnt want to reply, or talk to me.
after i sent my last msg, i couldnt continue to plan for the 1500words essay. killer man. feeling super down for a while. lunch too.


Mie2 start to go nuts during recess. -.- HO ******
She went even more crazy after recess.
MIEMIE! SUSHI OIISHI WATASHI MITSUBISHI SHISHISHI. smile alright!


We're going to make 朱老师 proud. I'm going to make mie2 do finish her chinese hw. :/ I've never been so serious bout chinese before. Gonna take chinese o's once and for all in the first opportunity! I'm aiming for A2! LOL.
Nah, I'm an ace student, so, going for all subjects A1! gambatte~~


Had assembly, and I nearly hit the principal. :X
I remembered I was "blacklisted" for awhile once by her last year for not tucking in my blouse. >.< and a few times by Ms Sng for not doing the same thing, and beginning of sec2 for colored hair! NO LOR, she abit thing also pick pick pick. I did colored back my hair black after magma red! It's the red color too strong. !#^$%*$=&
wait lemme think... another one is... colored or long nails? (HAHAHAHAHA)
and multiple earrings bla bla.
WA LAO. even vice.p also! plastic earrings cannot~ "PLEASE TAKE IT OUT."
You see, when i go back to school next year for o's results with coloured hair, another earhole! I make sure all my earholes can see very nice. hng. :X
but overall, I'm very good inside. (:
everywhere actually. ((:


Tmr's informal wear again! Can't stand wearing the full u. make me look like primary school kid. terrible color. -.-



Date : Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Time : 5:59 PM
Title :

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! I'm finally sort of back to myself, but there's an empty feeling. feel like tearing the empty part of, but it wasnt just one corner feeling that emptyness.

change e and amaths teacher! at first i said i'll put this in the largest font possible, and bold. haha but very bad? We started lessons already.

Five of us are together again! Exept that instead of sitting in pairs, we sit single-ly. hahaha . Better than in pairs?

New Vice principal. f3

Hadi got called by Ms Merduati through the microphone today already. hahaha naughty~~

More new teachers.

MIE2 that forever joker, in the parade square start joking already.

No more Week A Week B timetable! So what lor, having two timetables? Now only one, somemore school end earlier?
Except for poor TRIPLE SCIENCE CLASSES(but just one day only la. hahahahaha.)
WA LAO, no fair again la. ):
Biology students, poor thing(me!)!
everytime ah, aiya, the rest of the class released while we still have lessons!!!!
Somemore of all days, it has to be on wednesday! off 2.20pm!! while the rest can go home at 1.30 right?!?!
but nvm, it's okay! released at 1.30 is super early also. HNG.

and no recess bells. -.-
3 recesses from mon to thurs. GOOD LUH HUH, SEC3 GOT ANOTHER N.A CLASS GOT ONE SLOT OF RECESS JUST FOR THEMSELVES.F3


And my hair, did not get caught! wah heng sia. I thought i need to be sent home on the first day of school. ahhaha
And even though i remove 3 earrings, left only 2, i still get caught by ms yeo! !#$%^&*(+
NO PLASTIC EARRINGS. HNG.
!#$%^&*_+)(*&^%#!


and lastly, most importantly,
SHACKLETON, i miss you guys lor? I wrote on the cover of my foolscap with "SHACKLETON" without, knowing, it!
I really cant let go of you guys ah.

felt like smsing baowen, fitri, guanrong today, but didnt! aiya, tmr! CCH friends!! muack muack muack. haha


BAOWEN SMILE!



Date : Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Time : 11:04 PM
Title :






Thank you erina! ^^ I'm so touched. hee

Yes, and evia, I saw it in ur blog! I didn't know that when i posted, and thank you very de much!(x

arigato ernest! I saw your blog too (:

Sch's back on tmr..... I think, once sally sng start doing her !~#$%^&*( job, I will be sent home? cos i didn black back my hair properly. Hey, I wasnt ready to let go of the color hair ok! After o's I'll get it colored purple.

I can't sleep right now. Went to jack's place for dinner, and drank TEA. So now, serious case. But at most worse come to worse, dont sleep for the night lor. XD

I finally cried in the early noon. I felt great after the cry. It's time to look into the future; I must be strong. I had someone's shoulder to cry on(but not literally), because I was birthday girl. Hey, thank you yeah? Because of you, I dropped my first,heavy tear, and i dont mean it in a bad way. it was good. (: cheers.

Tmr's amalina's birthday! Gurl, I remember you! I remember what's your house number too, if it didnt change. hahaha. only last number different!

and and... carrot power's bd too!

HNG, all turning 16 and I've just turned 15 today. EVIA good enough to suan me i have to wait for another year to watch nc16 movies. WALAO? FINE LOR. I WILL WAIT FOR TIME. I SHALL CONTINUE TO ENJOY BEING THE YOUNGEST IN CLASS. LALALALALA

sayonara peeps.

this is what hadi sent to me, the 15 things to do for my 15bd. but not all though. haha!:

1)laugh everyday

2)don't think abt the past

3)be cheerful

4)

5) study hard for olvl

6)dont over study(LOL, I KNOW i'm in trip-science class, but i definitely will have more fun than study ^^ )

7)

8)play games

9)lots of games!

10)grow taller(HEY!)

11)dont cry ------------------------------------------( i wont complete the sent. )

12)really really grow taller(watch out hadi. hahaha. but i must admit i like being small size)

13) organise another shackleton meeting( I will if u guys want? but please, someone help me too! ) (he typed at my fav no. hohohohoho. haha)

14)

15)




Date :
Time : 10:36 AM
Title :

bla bla bla.
one word to describe how i'm feeling : very sad.
no, 2 words.


SINREN
YO GIRL! TYVM FOR THE 12.00 ON-THE-DOT birthday CALL!!
AIYER, IM SO TOUCHED!! ^^
you're the first! hahahah
Love you lots. Continue to rock.(:

HADI
Hey dude, thanks for accompanying me ytd night to vivo. That really means alot to me. I didnt have to spend another time of countdown at home, right after a new year at 12.00am, and go kuku in the head again. I'm sorry I wasn't a good entertainer... But, those silent moments are good enough, for the both of us, i guess. hahaha. time flies. you're a good companion.
Happy New Year yo. See you in school tmr! (:

FITRI
hello(:
I dont know how to start.. But, I wanna tell you, ur new year cum birthday msg really lifted my spirit up.
While I was at vivo quietly(with noise in bg) absorbing the scenery, you were on my mind. I know it's inappropriate but, yeah...
I know we're going to remain as friends just like always, but i'll always be here, whenever, ANYTIME you need me. But.. haha. I dont think u'll ever will.
<3

FANTASTIC 5!!!!!! ( + NESSA )
i love you guys! rock on! I dont know why, but i have the urge to kick all ur butts! hhahaha.
dont know what i'll become if i dont have u guys. especially mie2! joker of ytd, today, tmr, joker for life. (:
nessa's another, and my best companion. But sometimes i hope you're able to go out more often? haha.


BAOWEN
Had a great night ytd? Was that msg from you?
I hope you'll find your smile back. I don't wanna see another great friend who has become just like me? It makes things even more depressing.
Give me back my baowen!!!
)':


LENNARD
Lennard????!
aww, so sweet, in ur blog.
I MADE HIM TYPE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME IN HIS BLOG. WAHAHAHAHA~
thanks(:

And those who wished me h.bd too, thanks!

I'm finally 15... But it's also the most depressing and sad birthday I had in my life. I decided to skip breakfast cause I've got no mood to eat. The moment I woke up, my soso-"good" mood from ytd night immediately went down, and I nearly want to cry. I had to find my bolster to hug, but i wasnt looking for a bolster to give me comfort? You guys should know what i mean....
I should really stop dreaming, but I can't?

Today, suppose to go out to celebrate my birthday with family. Told them "aiya, just stay at home la."
I'm feeling so depressed, hw not complete, got chem test to study. Tell me, where to find the mood to go out? We're sec4s now, I can feel the olvl burden fall onto me. I have a feeling Im not going to pass O's. But i'll work hard.


OBS's last year.
Shackleton's chalet is a past.
Sec3 is over,
Olvl's next in line.
More hw, more lessons, heavier burden.
And with things the way they are now, i cant cope.

I need a good cry but i cant cry. Im suffering like mad inside. Someone, please help me?


I came into this world and see my first ray of light on 1stjan1993, 3.20pm