Date : Thursday, February 19, 2009 Time : 3:03 PM Title :
I feel so second-ed.
I've been trying so badly,it's wearing me out.I have no encouragement nor support because I'm not being reasonable,and I may give in to hatred one day.Soon,I expect.Is there time to turn things round?Will things go smoothly from now on or there will be more obstacles to continue to pull me down?
I sit here,yet my mind was somewhere else.
What is happening over there?
And yet,I don't wanna know.
Not any details that is related.
Still,it doesn't matter.I'm given this and I've got to take it,unreasonable I'll be or not.Somehow, I'm still hanging on.
I, no longer wanna try because everytime I tried and there was still no success,something crops up that just wanna make me fail and *snap* I'm back to the original position.
that's why my heart says.
Yet.
It also says to hang on.
It's better to hang on than to give up what I've been trying all these while.
And I'm not doing it just for myself.
But how do I be strong when I have to do it alone?Where's the support I need so badly?
No,there is nothing wrong and stop being so unreasonable.
I only have one sentence:
I will only stop being unreasonable when I stop caring.
After another cry,I'll pick myself up.
I think.
But I no longer wanna face it alone.
Because it makes me feel that what I'm trying is not worthwhile.