bla bla bla.
one word to describe how i'm feeling : very sad.
no, 2 words.


SINREN
YO GIRL! TYVM FOR THE 12.00 ON-THE-DOT birthday CALL!!
AIYER, IM SO TOUCHED!! ^^
you're the first! hahahah
Love you lots. Continue to rock.(:

HADI
Hey dude, thanks for accompanying me ytd night to vivo. That really means alot to me. I didnt have to spend another time of countdown at home, right after a new year at 12.00am, and go kuku in the head again. I'm sorry I wasn't a good entertainer... But, those silent moments are good enough, for the both of us, i guess. hahaha. time flies. you're a good companion.
Happy New Year yo. See you in school tmr! (:

FITRI
hello(:
I dont know how to start.. But, I wanna tell you, ur new year cum birthday msg really lifted my spirit up.
While I was at vivo quietly(with noise in bg) absorbing the scenery, you were on my mind. I know it's inappropriate but, yeah...
I know we're going to remain as friends just like always, but i'll always be here, whenever, ANYTIME you need me. But.. haha. I dont think u'll ever will.
<3

FANTASTIC 5!!!!!! ( + NESSA )
i love you guys! rock on! I dont know why, but i have the urge to kick all ur butts! hhahaha.
dont know what i'll become if i dont have u guys. especially mie2! joker of ytd, today, tmr, joker for life. (:
nessa's another, and my best companion. But sometimes i hope you're able to go out more often? haha.


BAOWEN
Had a great night ytd? Was that msg from you?
I hope you'll find your smile back. I don't wanna see another great friend who has become just like me? It makes things even more depressing.
Give me back my baowen!!!
)':


LENNARD
Lennard????!
aww, so sweet, in ur blog.
I MADE HIM TYPE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME IN HIS BLOG. WAHAHAHAHA~
thanks(:

And those who wished me h.bd too, thanks!

I'm finally 15... But it's also the most depressing and sad birthday I had in my life. I decided to skip breakfast cause I've got no mood to eat. The moment I woke up, my soso-"good" mood from ytd night immediately went down, and I nearly want to cry. I had to find my bolster to hug, but i wasnt looking for a bolster to give me comfort? You guys should know what i mean....
I should really stop dreaming, but I can't?

Today, suppose to go out to celebrate my birthday with family. Told them "aiya, just stay at home la."
I'm feeling so depressed, hw not complete, got chem test to study. Tell me, where to find the mood to go out? We're sec4s now, I can feel the olvl burden fall onto me. I have a feeling Im not going to pass O's. But i'll work hard.


OBS's last year.
Shackleton's chalet is a past.
Sec3 is over,
Olvl's next in line.
More hw, more lessons, heavier burden.
And with things the way they are now, i cant cope.

I need a good cry but i cant cry. Im suffering like mad inside. Someone, please help me?


I came into this world and see my first ray of light on 1stjan1993, 3.20pm