not really good.. but i still like it.


















I was drawing, body all slouched onto the couch. turned out better than i expected first time. haha. again, not perfect, but i still like it.














nth to do, so combined all my best drawings of this bear together. eh..... i didnt scan them properly from my sketch book. haha
and and, the bottom right drawing.. got one little bear, NOT INCLUDED -.-




9;12 PM
Yesterday talked to SUPERBW for a shoooooorrt while on msn! awww, she's so sweet! She said I must smile once in a while to cheer myself up. (: But somehow I've lost my smile.

Yesterday, went to yishun park with nessa, mie2 and ger.... to have an early celebration for my birthday! I was really really happy. Got the cake, light the candles, dont know used up how many matches! All say Mie2's matches lao ya pok XD Then we talked alot... waited for the workers to complete the playground so we can play.. till it drizzled alittle, but nessa had to go off, so we didnt get to play! ):
I made 2 wishes. one for friends, another about 348, and none for family >.<

Before we went off, asked if i could just see him, if he is playing soccer. I recognised him immediately from far... (nessa looked at wrong one. haha.but she saw soon enough)hmm. i couldn't bear to leave. i could have just... run and pull him out of his game and give him a tight and looonnng hug. I was going to break down at that moment. well, i got my friends with me.. so i didnt! *proud of myself*
But.. well.. he didnt want to see me.

Drank barcardi ytd night. Ruby grape fruit. Immediately addicted to it. Tonight might try the lime one! My mom also said she bought many bottles of barcardi because she knows i like to drink. haha.

Today did nothing. I felt like drawing all of a sudden. Went to look for forever friends bear online. found 2, but... i lost the touch of drawing. got frustrated... But still...... until late afternoon, i drew them out! Later scan them and post. hhaha.

empty laughter. sayonara.